Then, I couldn't find my ipad (still can't) and was late to meet my trainer who rearranged her schedule to accommodate me by getting up at 5:30 a.m. And, it was one of those "off" training days where I struggled with some basic stuff in the gym.
And this was all in the first hour of my day.
Why am I telling you my morning itinerary play by play? (I find that so annoying when people do it on Facebook!)
Because while on the elliptical without my ipad, I had time to think. And all I could think were positive thoughts! I realized I am making a choice. I can let this day go to crap and focus on what's not right or I can be positive and focus on all of the things that are great about those very same circumstances. I can be positive and happy. Because honestly, I am. Despite those things. That's life. Insignificant little set backs that won't matter in the grand scheme.
This is a journey. A process. And that is what I absolutely love about it! So I decided to embrace it and to turn what many would say were negatives to start my day (including the old Lori) into positives.
I thought:
- It's only a number. Truth is, after more than a year working with Leif Anderson on my fat loss protocol, I KNOW my body and I KNOW that I will have weeks where despite my best efforts and execution of the plan, I will not lose weight on the scale. That's what "hormonal" means to me. Happens every so often to millions of women! :-) Temporary setback. And again, only a number. Plus, quite frankly, I am not supposed to be weighing every day. :-) Most importantly, over time, I have learned this too shall pass and it is nothing more than the universe reminding me I am not in charge/control. Good lesson to be reminded of every so often.
- Time to be...positive. First off, without my ipad on the elliptical, I admittedly worked harder because I concentrated more on what I was doing. And, I had time to think and reflect. The result was that I cleared my mind and turned to positive thoughts and ended up writing my personal mission statement - a new mission for the new me!
It's so cool. I LOVE it! And someday soon - when I get to goal - I will share it with you.The bottom line is that would not have happened had I been on my Ipad buried in Facebook or email. It's usually when we take time and free the mind that these break throughs come. And I trust I will find my ipad today.
- Inside changing to match the outside. In the one hour reflection time, I also realized that my insides are changing to match my outside. I am living life from a positive, glass half full, let's rock the world, kind of place and it feels truly amazing!
When I hit snags in the road, like hormonal issues, or feelings of insecurity that come up because of how I look post significant weight loss, I am able to keep them in the perspective of the big picture (most days) and realize we all have things to learn, do and change and we are a constantly moving target. I like the person I have become on the inside as well as the outside -190+ lbs. I am thrilled with life and the opportunities before me. Yep, got some stuff to work through and new phases coming up to challenge me, but the truth is - I can't wait! And there is not one doubt in my mind that I will prevail a sexier, happier and healthier girl all around.
I want it for you. And I am so excited about what comes next I can hardly stand it. Yet watching it all unfold and unveil itself, one beautiful day, one beautiful person at a time is pretty fantastic too. So I am okay with it being a process.
Have a wonderfully positive day! Know I hold each of you in my heart today.
Hugs.
Lori
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